No Peace in Fear
What I feared has come upon me; what I dreaded has happened to me. I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil.” Job 3:25-26 (NIV)
Fear is an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
We often used the the word fear as an acronym False Evidence Appearing Real. I tell you everything I feared came upon me. I feared abandonment because a relationship I was emotionally attached to cut off communication. No phone calls, no visits, no forwarding address. Instead of communicating the decision to end the relationship, they said I'll talk to you tomorrow. Tomorrow came years later. The end began a new journey into my relationship with Christ. You see, God said don't feed your pearls to swine but I did just that. Instead of allowing the Holy Spirit to dwell in my temple I welcomed seeds of perversion, lust, confusion, distrust and manipulation. I feared poverty while living a life of poverty and lack. God said, He will supply all my needs. Instead of trustung God for work strategies I continued to work harder and longer hours. God said take rest in Him. I worked and worried. I grew weary trying to decide if I could pay my rent in full, buy some food, pay my energy bill or pay for medication. I reached total depletion in an eviction instead of God's conviction.
What I feared came upon me but it caused me to live in continued fear. I had to Face it, Explore it, Accept it and Rise above it. It wasn't to late. It was the beginning.